Honeeey, I think of you everyday just as I do today. As always, I rejoice in being blessed by your unconditional friendship that I don't know that I'll ever feel I deserved. For the first time, I have begun dreaming of you. What a bittersweet blessing. In my dreams, you love Noel. You've always loved Noel but this is different. It's as it was and would've been, had you been able to stay. Julie, I'm so happy that my children have such vivid memories of you. How fortunate we all are to have been touched by you. Yet still, I cry and weep and miss you so dearly. So many things I wish I could fix. You know my heart as no one else Julie. What a beautiful and amazing spirit you are. How I wish you were here... How I wish I could even come close to embracing you, the way you embraced life. They say it takes five years to begin to heal....I don't want to heal. I don't want the mourning to ever go away as the pain seems to keep it real. I love you so much Jules and pray that you are happy and dancing with the angels. Know that your children are beautiful and loved dearly! While I'd like to sign off as your one true best friend, I can't. I read so many posts from so many of your friends that you spoke of so frequently, I know that I was lucky enough, to be just one of the many who were blessed by you. Dearest Ginny, Theo, Carrie and Keith....I send all my love to you today. With so much love, Tammy |